李炫秀TED演講：我的北韓逃亡記
When I was little, I thought my country was the best on the planet, and I grew up singing a song called "Nothing To Envy." And I was very proud. In school, we spent a lot of timestudying the history of Kim Il-Sung, but we never learned much about the outside world,except that America, South Korea, Japan are the enemies. Although I often wondered about the outside world, I thought I would spend my entire life in North Korea, until everything suddenly changed.
我小的時(shí)候以為 我住在全世界最棒的國(guó)家 有首叫做「我們最幸�！� 的歌陪伴著我長(zhǎng)大 當(dāng)時(shí) 我好驕傲 在學(xué)校 我們花很多時(shí)間 學(xué)習(xí)有關(guān)金日成的歷史 但從來(lái)沒(méi)有人告訴我們 外面的世界長(zhǎng)甚么樣子 我們只知道 美國(guó) 南韓 和日本 都是敵人 即便我對(duì)外面的世界充滿好奇心 那時(shí)的我也沒(méi)想過(guò) 自己這輩子會(huì)離開(kāi)北韓 直到一切忽然急轉(zhuǎn)直下
When I was seven years old, I saw my first public execution, but I thought my life in North Korea was normal. My family was not poor, and myself, I had never experienced hunger.
But one day, in 1995, my mom brought home a letter from a coworker's sister. It read, "When you read this, all five family members will not exist in this world, because we haven't eaten for the past two weeks. We are lying on the floor together, and our bodies are so weak we are ready to die."
我七歲那年 第一次看到公開(kāi)處刑 但我還是覺(jué)得在北韓的生活很正常 我的家境并不窮困 而我也不曾餓過(guò)肚子.1995 年的某一天 我媽媽帶了一封信回到家 那封信是她同事的姊姊寄的 信上寫著 「當(dāng)你讀到這些字的時(shí)候 我們一家五口 已經(jīng)離開(kāi)這個(gè)世界了 因?yàn)槲覀円呀?jīng)足足餓了兩個(gè)禮拜 我們五個(gè)人現(xiàn)在全倒在地上 身體虛弱地 感受死亡的逼近」
I was so shocked. This was the first time I heard that people in my country were suffering.Soon after, when I was walking past a train station, I saw something terrible that I can't erase from my memory. A lifeless woman was lying on the ground, while an emaciated(瘦弱的，憔悴的) child in her arms just stared helplessly at his mother's face. But nobody helped them, because they were so focused on taking care of themselves and their families.
我當(dāng)下真的好震驚 那是我第一次知道 原來(lái)我們國(guó)家也有如此生靈涂炭的一面 那之后沒(méi)多久的一天 當(dāng)我經(jīng)過(guò)經(jīng)過(guò)火車站的時(shí)候 我看到一個(gè)可怕的景象 我這輩子永遠(yuǎn)忘不掉 一個(gè)女人奄奄一息地倒臥在路邊 手里卻仍緊抱著嬴弱的孩子 那孩子瞪大了雙眼 無(wú)助地凝視著媽媽的臉龐 但沒(méi)有一個(gè)人幫助他們 因?yàn)榇蠹叶济χ?照顧自己和自己的家人
A huge famine(饑荒) hit North Korea in the mid-1990s. Ultimately,(最后) more than a million North Koreans died during the famine, and many only survived by eating grass, bugs and tree bark(樹(shù)皮). Power outages(供斷) also became more and more frequent, so everything around me was completely dark at night except for the sea of lights in China, just across the river from my home. I always wondered why they had lights but we didn't. This is a satellite picture showing North Korea at night compared to neighbors.
90年代中期 北韓發(fā)生大饑荒 超過(guò)一百萬(wàn)的北韓人民 因?yàn)槟菆?chǎng)飢荒而死亡 而許多幸存者 靠著吃草 抓蟲(chóng) 嚼樹(shù)根 才活了下來(lái) 沒(méi)電的情況也越來(lái)越嚴(yán)重 所以當(dāng)夜色降臨時(shí) 我的世界天昏地暗我唯一能看到的是 中國(guó)的燈火照在海波上反射過(guò)來(lái)的光 中國(guó)距離我家僅有一河之隔 我總是在想 為什么他們有光 而我們卻沒(méi)有 這張是北韓夜晚的衛(wèi)星空照?qǐng)D 可以和鄰國(guó)們相比
This is the Amrok River, which serves as a part of the border between North Korea and China. As you can see, the river can be very narrow at certain points, allowing North Koreans to secretly cross. But many die. Sometimes, I saw dead bodies floating down the river. I can't reveal many details [about] how I left North Korea, but I only can say that during the ugly years of the famine I was sent to China to live with distant relatives. But I only thought that I would be separated from my family for a short time. I could have never imagined that it would take 14 years to live together.
這是鴨綠江 (Amrok River) 她就恰巧壓在 北韓和中國(guó)的邊境線上 如你所見(jiàn) 這條河川的河道十分狹窄 北韓人民可以從某些地方偷偷跨境 然而 有很多人因此死了 有時(shí)候 我會(huì)看到河面上漂著浮尸 我不能透漏太多 我是怎么怎么離開(kāi)北韓的 我能說(shuō)的就是 在那可恨的飢荒歲月中 我被送到中國(guó)的遠(yuǎn)房親戚那去了 但那時(shí)我認(rèn)為 我和我的家人過(guò)不久一定能再見(jiàn)面 我從來(lái)沒(méi)想過(guò)這一別 就是14 個(gè)年頭
In China, it was hard living as a young girl without my family. I had no idea what life was going to be like as a North Korean refugee(難民，避難者), but I soon learned it's not only extremely difficult, it's also very dangerous, since North Korean refugees are considered in China as illegal migrants. So I was living in constant fear that my identity could be revealed, and I would be repatriated(遣返) to a horrible fate back in North Korea.
在中國(guó) 沒(méi)有家人的陪伴下 很難不馬上長(zhǎng)大 我根本不知道 身為北韓難民 人生會(huì)變成什么樣子但很快地我就明白 這樣的生活不僅艱難困苦 更是危機(jī)四伏 因?yàn)橹袊?guó)將北韓難民 視為非法移民 所以我無(wú)時(shí)無(wú)刻都活在恐懼之中 我擔(dān)心我的身分會(huì)被發(fā)現(xiàn) 也擔(dān)心我會(huì)被遣返回北韓 接受可怕的命運(yùn)
One day, my worst nightmare came true, when I was caught by the Chinese police and brought to the police station for interrogation(審訊). Someone had accused me of being North Korean, so they tested my Chinese language abilities and asked me tons of questions. I was so scared, I thought my heart was going to explode. If anything seemed unnatural, I could be imprisoned and repatriated. I thought my life was over, but I managed to control all the emotions inside me and answer the questions. After they finished questioning me, one official said to another, "This was a false report. She's not North Korean." And they let me go. It was a miracle.
有一天 我的噩夢(mèng)成真了 中國(guó)的警察抓了我 把我?guī)Щ鼐炀秩捎?原來(lái) 有人向他們告發(fā)我是北韓人 于是 他們考我中文 問(wèn)我一大堆問(wèn)題 我好害怕 我的心臟簡(jiǎn)直要跳出來(lái)了 如果哪里表現(xiàn)的不自然 我很可能會(huì)面臨牢獄之災(zāi) 甚至 被遣返 當(dāng)時(shí) 我覺(jué)得我人生簡(jiǎn)直要畫上句點(diǎn)了 但我努力控制自己的情緒 回答那些問(wèn)題 他們問(wèn)完我之后 其中一個(gè)警察向另一個(gè)警察說(shuō) 這是誤報(bào) 她又不是北韓人 然后他們就這樣放我走了 這簡(jiǎn)直是奇跡
Some North Koreans in China seek asylum(避難所) in foreign embassies, but many can be caught by the Chinese police and repatriated. These girls were so lucky. Even though they were caught, they were eventually released after heavy international pressure. These North Koreans were not so lucky. Every year, countless North Koreans are caught in China and repatriated to North Korea, where they can be tortured, imprisoned or publicly executed.
一些在中國(guó)的北韓人民 會(huì)向外國(guó)駐華使館 尋求庇護(hù) 但還是有很多北韓人被中國(guó)警察抓走 然后被遣返 這幾個(gè)女孩很幸運(yùn) 那時(shí)候 雖然他們被逮捕了 中國(guó)后來(lái)還是因?yàn)槊媾R 國(guó)際施加的壓力釋放了他們 這幾個(gè)北韓人民就沒(méi)有那么幸運(yùn)了 每年 中國(guó)政府在中國(guó)境內(nèi)逮捕了無(wú)數(shù)的北韓人民 并將他們遣返回北韓 一個(gè)可能虐待他們 監(jiān)禁他們 甚至將他們公開(kāi)處刑的地方
Even though I was really fortunate to get out, many other North Koreans have not been so lucky. It's tragic that North Koreans have to hide their identities and struggle so hard just to survive. Even after learning a new language and getting a job, their whole world can be turned upside down in an instant. That's why, after 10 years of hiding my identity, I decided to risk going to South Korea, and I started a new life yet again.
即便我非常幸運(yùn)地逃離了那里 還是有許多北韓人民不是那么的走運(yùn) 北韓的人民需要隱姓埋名的生活 這件事真的很可悲 他們光是活下去就要花好大的.力氣 盡管如此 只要有機(jī)會(huì)學(xué)習(xí)新的語(yǔ)言 然后找到工作 這世界馬上就會(huì)截然不同 這也就是為什么 在我過(guò)了 10 年隱姓埋名的生活后 我決定冒險(xiǎn)前往南韓 再一次展開(kāi)我的新生活
Settling down in South Korea was a lot more challenging than I had expected. English was so important in South Korea, so I had to start learning my third language. Also, I realized there was a wide gap between North and South. We are all Korean, but inside, we have become very different due to 67 years of division. I even went through an identity crisis. Am I South Korean or North Korean? Where am I from? Who am I? Suddenly, there was no country I could proudly call my own.
在南韓安頓下來(lái) 比我想像中 要難的多 在南韓 英文非常重要 所以我得開(kāi)始學(xué)習(xí)第三種語(yǔ)言 此外我了解到南韓和北韓間 有著深不見(jiàn)底的鴻溝 雖然我們都叫做韓國(guó)人 但是骨子里的差異真的很大 畢竟我們分裂了 67 年啊 我甚至有過(guò)認(rèn)同危機(jī) 我究竟是南韓人 還是北韓人呢 我是從哪里來(lái)的 我究竟是誰(shuí) 一瞬間 讓我驕傲的國(guó)家 煙消云散了
Even though adjusting to life in South Korea was not easy, I made a plan. I started studying for the university entrance exam.
雖然不是那么容易適應(yīng)在南韓的生活 但我有了計(jì)畫 我開(kāi)始準(zhǔn)備起大學(xué)的入學(xué)考試
Just as I was starting to get used to my new life, I received a shocking phone call. The North Korean authorities intercepted (攔截)some money that I sent to my family, and, as a punishment, my family was going to be forcibly (強(qiáng)迫地)removed to a desolate(荒涼的) location in the countryside. They had to get out quickly, so I started planning how to help them escape.
但正當(dāng)我逐漸適應(yīng)新的生活的時(shí)候 我接到了一通令人錯(cuò)愕的電話 北韓政府 截獲到一些我寄回家的錢 他們懲罰我的家人 即將把我的家人發(fā)配到 窮鄉(xiāng)僻壤去 他們一定得快點(diǎn)離開(kāi) 于是我開(kāi)始幫他們計(jì)畫要如何出境
North Koreans have to travel incredible distances on the path to freedom. It's almost impossible to cross the border between North Korea and South Korea, so, ironically(具有諷刺意味地), I took a flight back to China and I headed toward the North Korean border. Since my family couldn't speak Chinese, I had to guide them, somehow, through more than 2,000 miles in China and then into Southeast Asia. The journey by bus took one week, and we were almost caught several times. One time, our bus was stopped and boarded by a Chinese police officer. He took everyone's I.D. cards, and he started asking them questions. Since my family couldn't understand Chinese, I thought my family was going to be arrested. As the Chinese officer approached my family, I impulsively (沖動(dòng)地，瞬間地)stood up, and I told him that these are deaf and dumb people that I was chaperoning(監(jiān)護(hù)人). He looked at me suspiciously, but luckily he believed me.
北韓距離自由 不可思議地遙遠(yuǎn) 南北韓間的國(guó)界 基本上是不可能穿越的 所以我又搭飛機(jī)回到中國(guó) 往中朝邊界前進(jìn) 因?yàn)槲壹胰藗儾粫?huì)說(shuō)中文 我得帶著他們 我們就這樣一路逃了 2000 哩 經(jīng)過(guò)了中國(guó) 來(lái)到東南亞 我們搭了一星期的巴士 有好幾次都差一點(diǎn)就被抓到了 有一天 我們的巴士突然熄火 一名中國(guó)警察走了來(lái) 他檢查每個(gè)人的身分證 然后問(wèn)大家問(wèn)題 因?yàn)槲业募胰瞬粫?huì)說(shuō)中文 我以為他們就要被逮捕了 于是 當(dāng)中國(guó)警察走近我家人的時(shí)候 我立刻站了以來(lái) 告訴他 那些人又聾 又啞 我是來(lái)陪他們來(lái)搭巴士的 他用懷疑的眼神看了我一會(huì)兒 他相信我了 真的好險(xiǎn)
We made it all the way to the border of Laos, but I had to spend almost all my money to bribe the border guards in Laos. But even after we got past the border, my family was arrested and jailed for illegal border crossing. After I paid the fine and bribe, my family was released in one month, but soon after, my family was arrested and jailed again in the capital of Laos.
然后我們就這樣一路到了寮國(guó)的邊境 但為了賄賂寮國(guó)邊境的警察 我?guī)缀趸ü饬宋宜械腻X然而進(jìn)入寮國(guó)之后 我的家人還是被抓進(jìn)去關(guān)了 理由是非法入境 在我繳了罰款 然后再次賄賂后的一個(gè)月 他們終于被放出來(lái)了 不過(guò)沒(méi)多久 他們又被逮捕 然后被關(guān)在寮國(guó)的首都
This was one of the lowest points in my life. I did everything to get my family to freedom,and we came so close, but my family was thrown in jail just a short distance from the South Korean embassy. I went back and forth between the immigration office and the police station, desperately trying to get my family out, but I didn't have enough money to pay a bribe or fine anymore. I lost all hope.
那絕對(duì)是我人生的最低潮的幾個(gè)日子之一 我費(fèi)盡了所有心思要讓我的家人自由 當(dāng)我們離自由如此接近的時(shí)候 他們又被抓進(jìn)去牢里了 那里距離南韓的使館只有幾步之遙 于是我開(kāi)始不斷地在入境局 和警察局間奔走 拚了命地要把我的家人弄出來(lái) 但我沒(méi)有足夠的錢 再去付罰款或是或賄賂了 我的希望徹底地粉碎
At that moment, I heard one man's voice ask me, "What's wrong?"
就在那刻 我聽(tīng)到一個(gè)男人的聲音 他問(wèn)我 「妳怎么了」
I was so surprised that a total stranger cared enough to ask. In my broken English, and with a dictionary, I explained the situation, and without hesitating, the man went to the ATM and he paid the rest of the money for my family and two other North Koreans to get out of jail.
我好驚訝 一個(gè)完全陌生的人 是關(guān)心地詢問(wèn)我 我用我的破英文 翻著字典 向他解釋這一切 那個(gè)男人二話不說(shuō)地 走到提款機(jī)前領(lǐng)了錢 幫我把積欠的罰金和賄賂用的錢全部還付清 讓我的家人和另外兩個(gè)北韓人能夠出獄
I thanked him with all my heart, and I asked him, "Why are you helping me?"
我由衷地向他道謝 然后問(wèn)他 「你為什么要幫助我」
"I'm not helping you," he said. "I'm helping the North Korean people."
他說(shuō) 「我不是要幫你 我?guī)偷氖潜表n的人民」
I realized that this was a symbolic moment in my life. The kind stranger symbolized new hope for me and the North Korean people when we needed it most, and he showed me the kindness of strangers and the support of the international community are truly the rays of hope (希望之光)we North Korean people need.
我知道這是我的人生中十分具象征性意義的一刻 這個(gè)好心的陌生人對(duì)我而言 象征了新的希望在北韓人民最需要希望的這一刻 他讓我體會(huì)到來(lái)自陌生人的善良 還有國(guó)際社會(huì)的支持 這些生命之光 都是我們北韓人民需要的
Eventually, after our long journey, my family and I were reunited in South Korea, but getting to freedom is only half the battle. Many North Koreans are separated from their families, and when they arrive in a new country, they start with little or no money. So we can benefit from the international community for education, English language training, job training, and more.We can also act as a bridge between the people inside North Korea and the outside world,because many of us stay in contact with family members still inside, and we send information and money that is helping to change North Korea from inside.
經(jīng)過(guò)了這些長(zhǎng)途跋涉 我和我的家人終于在南韓團(tuán)聚 在獲得自由后 我們還有一段路要走 許多北韓人民的家庭還是被拆散的 當(dāng)他們到新的國(guó)家 他們一盆如洗甚至身無(wú)分文 我們可以得到國(guó)際社會(huì)的援助 無(wú)論是教育 英語(yǔ)訓(xùn)練 職業(yè)訓(xùn)練 還是其他的 我們也能扮演起 北韓境內(nèi)人民和外頭世界 的橋梁 因?yàn)槲覀冎械脑S多人 和還留在北韓的家人都還保持著連絡(luò) 我們把資訊和金錢送進(jìn)去 從內(nèi)部著手幫忙改變北韓
I've been so lucky, received so much help and inspiration in my life, so I want to help give aspiring (渴望的，勵(lì)志的)North Koreans a chance to prosper(繁盛，成功) with international support. I'm confident that you will see more and more North Koreans succeeding all over the world, including the TED stage.
我真的很幸運(yùn) 得到了很多幫助 這一路走來(lái) 也接受了許多人的鼓勵(lì) 所以我想要燃起北韓人的熱情 讓他的在國(guó)際的幫助下 有機(jī)會(huì)能成功 我有信心你們將會(huì)看到越來(lái)越多的 北韓人能夠在世界各地有很好的表現(xiàn) 包括在 TED 這個(gè)舞臺(tái)上
Thank you.
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